I am never eating at You and I sushi again. All you can eat sushi kills me because I always want to get my money's worth... and when I feel like I do, I feel like complete crap because I overeat to the point where I want to throw up. Ew, I know.
Despite my current fat and disgusting state, spring break is starting off really well; with the rise on price for alternative spring break and my secretly selfish desire to have spring break to myself this year, friday night after my internship I went to the Trinity House for the first time and met all these other film students who were getting drunk.
But anyways later that night, I was persuaded by Jen to go to How Sweet since I wasn't planning on spending 60 bucks on going. However, she's been telling me that its the "chill" rave and I wouldn't be as overwhelmed as I was at EDC. Tao was superfun, and if How Sweet is chill, then its more suited for me. I always saw myself more as a house roll go-er. But I went to How Sweet, met some cool people, danced my butt off, laughed my butt off, kissed my butt off, and overall had a really great time. Every single time i go to a massive, I get more comfortable because I know what to expect, and it becomes more enjoyable. However I need to stop massives soon, its really hurting my wallet and my brain.
The next day I woke up at two and talked to April about filmmaking for a good deal of time. Then Jen called and wanted to chill, we went to bride wars with nick cheung and cried our eyes out during BRIDE WARS. lol. i know, i guess we were still feeling the effects of the previous night. Then we went to her place with nick and watched the Changeling for a little bit -- which i have to say, I always admired Angelina Jolie for her classic beauty and her femme fatale style, but i was really, really blown away with her performance in this film. Clint Eastwood is also becoming one of my favorite directors, his auteurship with colors and detail (especially lighting details to create a sense of isolation) is easily a very impressionable style for me.
Kiyoshi, Jen and Kirby slept over at my place that night since Jen didn't have anyone at her place and we didn't want to be alone. But its all good and fun now that I had a few days of fun and finally taking some time to rest for myself and work on my own projects and art. I want to be able to edit a good chunk of TPCD before i leave for VEGAS with some 21+ MCIA people on thursday. Whoot, this is the Spring Break I have been dreaming about for some time now. Although I don't want to cut being productive out of the way... oh, and one last thing:
I wrote an email to Creative Minds this morning about my final decision about going to cannes:
"Dear Creative Minds,
I would like to thank you very much for the 500 dollar scholarship you have offered me in aid of my sudden financial crisis and that I really appreciate this from the bottom of my heart. I would like to apologize in advance for this sudden news; my family and I had prepared money if I were to be accepted into this program, but because of unforeseen circumstances, we had to use the money for external family matters. Sadly, in addition to the 500 dollars I have fundraised, I still don't think I will be able to pay for the current program fee in time.
I am very honored and felt such a rush of excitement when Creative Minds gave me this once in a lifetime opportunity to prove my art and filmmaking skills at the most prestigious film festival in the world. I was very brokenhearted when I received these news from my family after my acceptance to Creative Minds, but I believe that everything happens for a reason and that this situation happened so that I may learn from it. I really hope this situation hasn't put me in a dim light for future competition, because it has always been a lifelong dream of mine to go to Cannes. It has been the most trying two weeks for me in order to realize if this trip were possible to fall through for me or not; therefore, i would not like to cause any more delay in letting you know my situation and how helpless I feel.
Thank you so much Creative Minds, for giving me a chance. I understand times are hard for everybody and yet your mission is still fulfilling the dreams of many young filmmakers. I am very sorry that I am unable to go but the timing is just unfortunate because of the sudden impact of the economy on my family. I wish you all the best in your future endeavors and I hope that our paths will cross again soon.
Best Regards,
Roxy Shih"
After i clicked "send," my heart stopped for a little bit and I wanted to cry. A few minutes later, this came into my inbox:
"Hi Roxana,
From everyone at Creative Minds we deeply empathize with your current financial situation. In these incredibly turbulent economic times we understand the challenges that come with the seemingly insurmountable task of raising funds. As we were extremely impressed by your application, we would be honored to have you as a part of your program even if it can't happen until next year. With all of this in mind please keep in contact with us as we look forward to you reconnecting with us next spring as a participant in our 2010 Creative Minds In Cannes Program. Thanks again and have a great day!
Brian Walker
Program Director
Creative Minds In Cannes
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Everything happens for a reason. I will able to take my 20 units as planned for Spring Quarter and hopefully graduate on time... and I will also devote as much time as I can to APhiO. This quarter will determine everything regarding my relationship with my fraternity with the rest of college; whatever it stands, I don't want it to diminish. And... i will also take this time during the Spring Quarter to really thnk about my role on MCIA next year.
Cheers.
